? ; Wednesday, December 23, 2009
The story between Jolin&Nick
im awaken finally.haha, i didnt noe tat u have already gave up until i read ur blog.
yea, i've taught u how to break a heart.
its all my fault.
i don see e point anymore, u had made it clear through e lyrics.
its good that im not e end of ur world.
at least u are strong to take this up by urself.
how silly am i to think tat we might have a chance again.
yea, i shouldnt think tat way, im e one who broke ur heart first.
im sorry.
im having no worries anymore, at least i noe u are fine without me.
stay strong boy, u can live better without me.
take gd care.
Labels: im silly to think tat we are still possible.
? 12/23/2009 12:43:00 AM,
NOTHINGlastforever
? ; Wednesday, December 16, 2009
The story between Jolin&Nick
selfish is e act i learned from this relationship.
along the journey, i became selfish.
started demanding like how u said.
u said i didnt put a thought for u.
i did everything my way.
i take evry words u mentioned lightly, avoids everything u said.
after every fights u wanna please me, tats y u sent sweet msges.
but i treat it as nothing. im cold towards u.
yea, i admit its all my fault after some deep thoughts.
i am sure selfish and unreasonable.
we are no longer that sweet. no longer that loving.
we are not the couples tat ppl envious of.not anymore.
our dreams will nv come.
wat lasting, wat forever. no, not anymore.
jus becos e selfishness i have. complaining wat should not.
everytime hoping u to take e first step to coax me, to talk to me.
i understand e stress u are having being tgt with me.
u are changing not becos e situation we are in, but me.
im e one who changed u.i've changed u into someone i am not familiar of.
i don noe if u are still loving me like before.
e way u talk to me now aren't tat sweet anymore.
i understand. there's no one i can blame but myself.
i wont force u to do wat u don like.
i wont let myself to change u again.
i will stop demanding.stop telling u wat should u do.
its all my fault. i noe. i really noe.
i noe u are tired of this relationship. tired of me.
nomatter wat is ur decision.i'll respect.
sorry boy.
along the journey, i became selfish.
started demanding like how u said.
u said i didnt put a thought for u.
i did everything my way.
i take evry words u mentioned lightly, avoids everything u said.
after every fights u wanna please me, tats y u sent sweet msges.
but i treat it as nothing. im cold towards u.
yea, i admit its all my fault after some deep thoughts.
i am sure selfish and unreasonable.
we are no longer that sweet. no longer that loving.
we are not the couples tat ppl envious of.not anymore.
our dreams will nv come.
wat lasting, wat forever. no, not anymore.
jus becos e selfishness i have. complaining wat should not.
everytime hoping u to take e first step to coax me, to talk to me.
i understand e stress u are having being tgt with me.
u are changing not becos e situation we are in, but me.
im e one who changed u.i've changed u into someone i am not familiar of.
i don noe if u are still loving me like before.
e way u talk to me now aren't tat sweet anymore.
i understand. there's no one i can blame but myself.
i wont force u to do wat u don like.
i wont let myself to change u again.
i will stop demanding.stop telling u wat should u do.
its all my fault. i noe. i really noe.
i noe u are tired of this relationship. tired of me.
nomatter wat is ur decision.i'll respect.
sorry boy.
Labels: i'll support wat u do.
? 12/16/2009 03:01:00 AM,
NOTHINGlastforever
? ; Tuesday, December 8, 2009
The story between Jolin&Nick
im trying to amend my heart myself.but i realized my heart is in the palm of your hand.
its very late now. i can't slp at all.
im listening to lil eddie's statue right now.
im filled with tears in my heart.
before i stop working, our love is fading.
i don wanna this way.but it doesn't seem to be within our control.
looking at our messages everyday, they are nothing.
no longer the sweetness, no longer the happiness.
i was wondering what happened to us nowadays.
we can overcome any obstacles.but we had never never fade.
not even a little.
your attachments, your confinements, my work,
the third party and the conflicts with your mom.
we overcame and was even closer than before.
memories had been flashing through my mind.
the first sight of you at 7-11.
the days im awaiting for yours return from Ipoh.
the first dating at cineleisure.
the first dinner we had in sumo house.
the first sweet kiss in the playground.
the first good night kiss you gave me on my forehead
the first picture we took
and
the songs we loved.
im grateful tat i was able to endure and perservere and wait for your return.
we went through so much for the past 1yr 5mths.
we had so much memories together.
but i felt that we are getting further apart from each other now.
u have been telling me u wont leave me alone.
u wont abandon me like others.
u will hold tight of my hand, in case i wanna escape.
u said its worth for my love.
i remembered u mentioned about what makes u love me.
its my smile that attracts you.
u treat me good, treat me well. dote me, love me, make me smile.
the way u touch my face, they are sweet.
whenever im sick, u'll be e first to nag at me.
restrict me from eating fried and heaty food and cold drinks.
its been so long u wanna cuddle to me.
i love to see u slping in my laps.
i love to scratch ur back.
i love to be hugged by you.
you promised me that im e only and last girl u are loving in your life.
but do dear still hold this promise?
being loved by you is a kind of fortune.
i hope everything is fine. i don wanna end this so quickly.
its a kind of dream to me, which i don wan to wake up from this dream.
hope we are still the same like the past.
i wan us to be a Perfect Couple.
the couple which others would be envious of.
iloveyou dear.
Labels: i want the past, the boy i always love.
? 12/08/2009 02:10:00 AM,
NOTHINGlastforever
? ; Friday, December 4, 2009
The story between Jolin&Nick
Last sunday. 29 Nov 2009
went down to Singapore Expo IT show to visit my laopos after my work.
so long didnt see them lerh. we are too busy to meet.
i wanted to work with them so much but cant becos of the stupid work im having.
Ahyi acc me to smoke.
den i helped to pack the laptops up and put them in the box.
u noe, the comex show organiser are so budget lar!
they off the aircon before 9 and its so hot and humid inside.
we packed until everyone sweats.
after packing everything and the ASUS team took photos tgt^^
its rare ok.
? 12/04/2009 06:31:00 PM,
NOTHINGlastforever
? ;
The story between Jolin&Nick
hello ppl!
its been so long again i didnt blog lerh ohs.
this time will blog about prom night.
that day is 25 Nov 2009. its my prom night day.
met baobei at his house in the morning. slacked and watched baobei slp.
he's tired becos he had been working overnight.
about 5 plus i went home and saw Brian and Yi Rhong on their way to the Conrad hotel.
i tot e prom starts at 7 plus and suppose to meet ahde at 8.
but they told me the prom starts at 6.30 so i rushed home and called ahde to meet me at 7.
sorry ahde, i made him wait under my block for more than 1/2 hr. as u noe, ladies are vain ok.
haha. den we cabbed down to Conrad hotel.
it was fun during the dinner, but the food sucks!
it is not nice at all! so we went down to the AMK drive thru mac to have our supper.
it should be about 12am bar.
after that i cabbed down to baobei's house.
here are some photos ^^
Chee how!
stupid ahde.
terine!
Afiq
Marcus
Ahde, Daniel, Flavian
Flavian
Ms low, shahirah!
Mdm Tong the vice.
Mdm Anantha
Mr Tong the form
? 12/04/2009 06:16:00 PM,
NOTHINGlastforever
? ; Wednesday, November 4, 2009
The story between Jolin&Nick
hello people. im back ohs.
so damn lazy to blog.
hmm, so where should i start?
shall talk about recently.
im running for the last lap. o lvl is tiring. had been studying till very late but still, i dont think i did well in the papers.
im prepared for the worse. will have to detour, go ite den poly. by tat time im already 21 in poly.
the oldest barh.
28th Oct went for precious's POP.
hm, at first i cant see where he is, becos from where im seated, everybpdy was so small.
cant clearly see who is who. ahaha, i even pointed at e wrong person and baobei's family laughed at me. its embarrasing can!
the POP last about 3 hrs and we are bored to death!!!
after POP we meet darlinq at the refreshment area and took photos with him.
so damn lazy to blog.
hmm, so where should i start?
shall talk about recently.
im running for the last lap. o lvl is tiring. had been studying till very late but still, i dont think i did well in the papers.
im prepared for the worse. will have to detour, go ite den poly. by tat time im already 21 in poly.
the oldest barh.
28th Oct went for precious's POP.
hm, at first i cant see where he is, becos from where im seated, everybpdy was so small.
cant clearly see who is who. ahaha, i even pointed at e wrong person and baobei's family laughed at me. its embarrasing can!
the POP last about 3 hrs and we are bored to death!!!
after POP we meet darlinq at the refreshment area and took photos with him.
Last sat, went pasir ris with honey to join his squad bbq. its raining so big that we couldnt start the bbq early.met up with alvin, embroze and their girlfriends. have dinner in pastamania becos we thot there is no more bbq due to the cats and dogs.
his friends called and said they have started the fire so we rushed to the BBQ pit.
baobei's FI was childish ahah! he killed a frog by smashing the water bottles on it.
poor frog, 'moan'.
went to the nearest pool arcade in the E hub. lousy tables and cue stick.
stayed until 1 am. thought we could go home slp but jie xiong and alfred called us to go down to the wens to look for them. its so late but they insist so we cabbed down to clark quay.
was punished to drink for being late. thanks dear for drinking the other 2 cups of calsberg for me.
jie xiong vomited becos its his birthday that day. everybody force beers into his mouth.
ahaha. poor thing. took some photos ^^
jie xiong!
Labels: everything is possible with u around.
? 11/04/2009 11:09:00 AM,
NOTHINGlastforever
? ;
The story between Jolin&Nick
Happy 16 months
(1 yr 4 months)
dear, finally we are together for 16 months already.
it was happy 16 months, but i don find it happy.
another quarrel today, sighs.
u said i changed, u said im harsh and u said i don care.
but i thot u said u chose to trust me that i wont leave u?
today, i don feel it. u had been looking for things to fight with me.
dear, doubt u feel that u are the one changing.
u cant take jokes anymore. u cant.
everytime i wanna joke with u, i said something i feel its funny. but to u, u find them irritating.
u thinks that im insulting u, scolding u.
u were so harshed that u told me not to attend ur POP that day. u said u don need me there.
it brokes my heart totally.which, the cracks will nv be amended again.
u said i don say iloveyou and imissyou when we are chattin on phone. seriously speaking, i felt u are over sensitive.even if i don say them to u on phone, but i said them face to face and msges. didnt i?
u keep complaining i've been slping too early and i cant chat with u through the night. i know, and i tried to change. every thurs i try to turn in early, to ensure that i have more energy on fri to chat with u throughout the night. didnt i again?
u said we hadnt been chatting out stuffs except my school life and ur army life. i do agree. we are lesser and lesser topic to chat about everyday. i don wan to see us this way too. u are the only one had been together with me for more than 1 yr, its not easy to give up even if we say so.
sighs. i've told u jus now, how much i loved u. how have i tried. how important and how afraid am i to lose u.
i admit im being selfish, im sorry dear.
after tonight, im prepared for the worse. i've told u how i feel jus now, but u don seem to bother.
u said u are tired and need some rest.sighs, maybe when im talking jus now u are already half- slping.
i believe u are tired in both the relationship and ur mind.
should u rest well and think about wat i've said. i got to say, im prepared for the worse.
(1 yr 4 months)
dear, finally we are together for 16 months already.
it was happy 16 months, but i don find it happy.
another quarrel today, sighs.
u said i changed, u said im harsh and u said i don care.
but i thot u said u chose to trust me that i wont leave u?
today, i don feel it. u had been looking for things to fight with me.
dear, doubt u feel that u are the one changing.
u cant take jokes anymore. u cant.
everytime i wanna joke with u, i said something i feel its funny. but to u, u find them irritating.
u thinks that im insulting u, scolding u.
u were so harshed that u told me not to attend ur POP that day. u said u don need me there.
it brokes my heart totally.which, the cracks will nv be amended again.
u said i don say iloveyou and imissyou when we are chattin on phone. seriously speaking, i felt u are over sensitive.even if i don say them to u on phone, but i said them face to face and msges. didnt i?
u keep complaining i've been slping too early and i cant chat with u through the night. i know, and i tried to change. every thurs i try to turn in early, to ensure that i have more energy on fri to chat with u throughout the night. didnt i again?
u said we hadnt been chatting out stuffs except my school life and ur army life. i do agree. we are lesser and lesser topic to chat about everyday. i don wan to see us this way too. u are the only one had been together with me for more than 1 yr, its not easy to give up even if we say so.
sighs. i've told u jus now, how much i loved u. how have i tried. how important and how afraid am i to lose u.
i admit im being selfish, im sorry dear.
after tonight, im prepared for the worse. i've told u how i feel jus now, but u don seem to bother.
u said u are tired and need some rest.sighs, maybe when im talking jus now u are already half- slping.
i believe u are tired in both the relationship and ur mind.
should u rest well and think about wat i've said. i got to say, im prepared for the worse.
Labels: 1 yr 4 months. its not easy.
? 11/04/2009 01:47:00 AM,
NOTHINGlastforever