? ; Wednesday, November 4, 2009
The story between Jolin&Nick
Happy 16 months
(1 yr 4 months)
dear, finally we are together for 16 months already.
it was happy 16 months, but i don find it happy.
another quarrel today, sighs.
u said i changed, u said im harsh and u said i don care.
but i thot u said u chose to trust me that i wont leave u?
today, i don feel it. u had been looking for things to fight with me.
dear, doubt u feel that u are the one changing.
u cant take jokes anymore. u cant.
everytime i wanna joke with u, i said something i feel its funny. but to u, u find them irritating.
u thinks that im insulting u, scolding u.
u were so harshed that u told me not to attend ur POP that day. u said u don need me there.
it brokes my heart totally.which, the cracks will nv be amended again.
u said i don say iloveyou and imissyou when we are chattin on phone. seriously speaking, i felt u are over sensitive.even if i don say them to u on phone, but i said them face to face and msges. didnt i?
u keep complaining i've been slping too early and i cant chat with u through the night. i know, and i tried to change. every thurs i try to turn in early, to ensure that i have more energy on fri to chat with u throughout the night. didnt i again?
u said we hadnt been chatting out stuffs except my school life and ur army life. i do agree. we are lesser and lesser topic to chat about everyday. i don wan to see us this way too. u are the only one had been together with me for more than 1 yr, its not easy to give up even if we say so.
sighs. i've told u jus now, how much i loved u. how have i tried. how important and how afraid am i to lose u.
i admit im being selfish, im sorry dear.
after tonight, im prepared for the worse. i've told u how i feel jus now, but u don seem to bother.
u said u are tired and need some rest.sighs, maybe when im talking jus now u are already half- slping.
i believe u are tired in both the relationship and ur mind.
should u rest well and think about wat i've said. i got to say, im prepared for the worse.
Labels: 1 yr 4 months. its not easy.
? 11/04/2009 01:47:00 AM,
NOTHINGlastforever
